Friday, June 11, 2004
feeling slpy.. i'm such a lazy arse.. my blog juz got screwed up again.. everytime i wanted to do some serious typing it got erased. i'm getting fuking numbed to it oredi.. sorry ppl but i'm so pissed at the moment.attitude: heck care
yup.. cant rem some of the blog tt i typed earlier. but nvm.. i'm late for work adi.. but u tink i care? well i dont give it any shit. cos i sure dun feel cheerful now. i'll be later thou. i change so fast to a happy gal tt i cant believe it myself sometimes.. fickle-minded arse.. anyway, i really wanna blog out wad i really tink NOW. i noe it's gonna be diff later.
had driving ytd. wasn't good. had few accidents but both the car n i got back in one piece. oh, forgot tt the instructor got back in one piece too. haha..
met pl for movie at nite. blardy show only shown at lido.. its called 'Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind'. no comments to tt show. but its watchable la.. oh its nc-16 btw.. pl bought the tics when i wasn't there n the person asked her if she's 16 adi. haha.. tink she got annoyed by tt. so i took the tics when we got in. but the ah pek, take the tix le still give me tis scrutinising look. *rolls eyes* its nc-16 cos of 'sexual references'. i guess it meant the FREQUENT usage of fuck(excuse moi) + one glance of a guy's ass. tt means troy shld be nc-16 too rite.. cos i keep seeing brad pitt's butt. haha..
time flies really fast ya.. its getting nearer to jul le.. cant wait to leave the office n at the same time cant bear to leave. its exciting waiting for jul to come. another chapter of me life is starting. but if there's a starting means there's an ending too. its like when ppl come into our lives but they are gonna leave one day. tian xia mei you bu san de yan xi. so true!!
exciting month of jul coming, where there's MY BDAE, the CRUISE, ORIENTATION and the START OF SCH to look forward to. on the other hand, i was kinda dreading MY BDAE n the START OF SCH. been tinking tt my bdae means me leaving the comfort zone of 18 n gg onto 19. n i keep feeling my shoulders are getting heavier(thou there's not much responsibilities yet). i'm sure i'll pass my bdae normally, remain childish n feel silly aft tt for even tinking tis way today. crap rite? but wadeva.. tt's me.. n y the start of sch. cos its a new thing n like a baby taking its first step, i'm in doubt. ya rite.. like a baby. hahaz.. wad an analogy.. i surprise myself sometimes. haha..
yeah.. last pt for the blog. getting way too long adi.. pl said its easy to get into ntu engine but diff to get out. well firstly, everyone's like saying tis for everything we do la. since sec sch days there has been ppl saying bb no future, sure go poly. jc? forget it. n it almost got me, cos for a moment i really believed in tt. but so? she got into ac n i made it to pj. then ppl say pj no good. few ppl make it to uni. tt period of time was really bad. but so? i made it. she made it. time n again we made it. it so shows tt it doesn't matter where we go. if we gotta end up together again, we will.
i'll always rem mrs tan saying my eng cmi. said i'll get bad results for 'O's n if i manage to go jc, will fail GP. juz realised tt she's the demon man.. she's been haunting me subconsciously till lately. i so wanted to prove it tt I DUN SUCK AT ENG. was such a HUGE relief when i passed my GP. and when i got into uni n stuff. i'm so glad i made my point. so she's HISTORY MAN.. i supposed i gotta be grateful to her as well. if not i'll juz rot my life away n end up sweeping the roads. guess i owed tt to all my teachers. even those whom i dun like, w/o them i'm juz a piece of shit. but i tink i'm still a piece of shit. cos i'm full of shit. hahah.. *lame*
well, i surprised myself again today. was good to get wadeva i wanna say out. finally i managed to do it. i always managed to tink it out only. its diff for me to get it out in words n even more diff for me to tell ppl abt it. improving sia.. haha.. guess i'm still learning..
anyway gg to work le. zhaoz~
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