Sunday, March 14, 2004

so tired.. slpt for 3.5 hours only ytd.. but dun feel like slping.. juz stoning ard n tinking now..

camp was ok. din really do much. cos din plan to do much in the first place la. juz wanted to go back to sch, walk ard n talk to pl.. sorta regretted now, not bout talking to pl of course. the talk was great. but bout gg back to sch. found out things la.. things tt i dun wanna noe, things tt i'm not supposed to noe, things tt i'm not supposed to say, things tt spoil the image of sch to me totally.. i tink wad mr quek said is so true. ' i'll rather keep the good memories wif me than go back n gain bad memories.' it so make me wanna stop gg back.. cos i dun wish to hav bad memories together wif my good ones, bbss yr 1998-2001. i mean how much longer can i continue helping the guides too? i oredi felt the unfamiliar looks from the sec 1s. not much longer i guess/hope. cos i'm feeling tired le...

talking to pl since ytd. both of us got so excited when we talked about our 'guang rong shi' haz.. n we both agreed tt sec sch days/frens are the best thing tt ever happened to us. it so seems like ytd.. our bond has strengthened BUT i wanna do tt wif u too..

as i leave the sch today, i felt tt my time in bb has got to an end..

everything has changed so much. me including.. merlin said 'i like u wif long hair. cos u look sweet.' i was like tinking, 'ha, dun tink the old mag is here anymore..'

the world is becoming so pragmatic. n I HATE IT...

U held my hand @[5:01 PM]